"speak the words i want to hear...

to make my demons run...."

and so is the person i yearn for that can speak such words.

its late, i'm not that tired. i need things to tire me. thoughts, of course. sometimes thinking can be so tiring yet so inspiring it'll keep you awake for hours, sometimes the same is true of darker thoughts, not allowing you to rest for constant mind fidgeting. sometimes, i have no problem shutting my brain off, and fall asleep easily. othertimes, i sense blowing a hole in the side of my skull with a shotgun wouldnt stop it from thinking.

so the past week has gone, and some things have happened. i'm now 29, and hoping i can do something to 'celebrate' my 30th next year. hopefully somewhere... else. i'm not bothered about birthdays that much, it just seems to be a day i actually hear off people more than i normally do, either from a sense of caring or a sense of guilt. such is the weird mystical world of friendship! ah friends, i've been slowly working my way through the american sitcom, and thoroughly enjoying it too. series 3 is where i'm at.

RIP shout out to my phone, my old nokia n80. she died a few days ago from a non-working display, you will be sorely missed. on the other hand, welcome miss blackberry. you annoy the hell out of me so far and shall probably continue to do so, but i shall give you time to weave your charm over me yet.

well, gonna give bed another go....

thank you for reading another pointless and aimless blog