about me.

or is it? see, often before those few hours of sleep i get every night, i think. about everything and nothing. sometimes its about people, about what i want or would have liked, and sometimes about completely random nonsense. the latter, gets a turn now.

this planet, and this whole "life" thing. whats it about? i mean seriously, religion? no thanks. sounds too absurd to me that all these things happened centuries ago and now these just ancient books to give us proof. if you believe in it, fine. just dont preach shit. see, in my own thoughts i cant tell exactly what everyone else thinks or if they're like me. for all i know you could all be puppets or actors, much akin to a certain jim carrey film. perhaps everyone is like this but we appear differently on other peoples "reality", hence perhaps the dream. dreams, are the most random and mysterious things i have ever or will ever encounter. why? where from? what for? i've dreamt about something, and then it'll happen a few days later. dejavu? perhaps. but i know i dreamt it. also, they twist reality and thus confounds us(or me) with confusion. other times, they are complete nonsense.

but why am i here exactly? i've done nothing of mention in my life surely? maybe thats still to come, i'm really unsure. but it just makes me wonder what is all this about? i once summised it was a game. serious. just listen...

earth. created by a guy with a big white beard (hence god). he created a game for his own kind to spend doing what they may consider enjoyment. aim of the game? well, you dont have to, but the idea is to become a well known figure and to have done some good. the OTHER aim is the opposite. so for example... hitler. whoever controlled this egotistical twit did extremely well and did a lot of bad. da vinci, became one of the most brilliant artists and inventors of all time, and became one of the high scorers. etc etc. this was all thought of during another restless night years ago. i do apologise.

so is there a great purpose? i'm really unsure. but main thing? try to make yourself happy. tis about all you can do really. fuck me... i babble a bit dont i=/